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not worth it

if you know me well, you know i like to watch those detective shows: CSI, Monk, etc. i just like how they figure things out, put pieces together, how detailed oriented they are, etc.

and as most detective shows go... there's always an ep about a person who commited suicide... with a note and everything. and then of course, as predictable as some of these eps are, you find out later that the whole thing was not a suicide but protrayed as one by the killer. etc. etc.

recently, everytime i watch an ep like that with someone (my sister, eric, whoever) i always turn to them and say, "i would never kill myself. if it appeared that i did, i was murdered" lol my sister was like "can i get that in writing?"

seriously tho. i know ppl say "never say never" but i think this is one thing i can honestly say i will NEVER do. there's only a couple reasons why someone would kill themselves over: love or/and money. i'm open with more opinions to other reasons but i think those are the primary two.

and i dont think my life is worth taking BY MY OWN hands just because i'm depressed or in debt.

it's not worth it.

now if i have to give my life to save a loved one, then yes, i would do it. but i feel that doesnt really fall under the category "suicide" even tho i might be taking my life with my own hands. i mean yeah if you look up the word "suicide" then it does fall under the same word. but when i think of "suicide" i think of depression also.

like if a loved one is in danger and the only way to save them is to kill yourself with your own hands... i dont consider that "suicide"... altho i have to wonder if that happens often lol

what you think?

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_catrina
Dec. 9th, 2006 10:38 pm (UTC)
OMG the title of this post is so scary. Almost made my heart skip a beat.
arnogseel
Dec. 10th, 2006 10:43 pm (UTC)
sorry haha i guess i should change it
devipz
Dec. 12th, 2006 03:24 am (UTC)
There are also those with a chemical imbalances that cause them to be very clinically depressed. With that kind of depression and without support, suicide oftentimes is the only answer they see.
arnogseel
Dec. 12th, 2006 05:26 pm (UTC)
that's really sad :(

if i ever get so depressed that i get chemically imbalanced (did i use that correctly?) please be my support! :)

or how would i be able to take care of you when we're old?!

but i think i'm generally cheerful so i should be ok.... yeah...
devipz
Dec. 13th, 2006 05:43 am (UTC)
Then there's perinatal and postpartum depression...
arnogseel
Dec. 13th, 2006 05:44 am (UTC)
now you're starting to confuse me
devipz
Dec. 13th, 2006 06:41 am (UTC)
Confuse you about what?
arnogseel
Dec. 13th, 2006 06:53 am (UTC)
lol nm :P
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