February 18th, 2003

hug me and dont let go

life goes on

today i've learned that even tho you could love someone dearly in that way, you may not be able to be with them in the long run. i've been reminded how confusing love is and no one can really define it. it's just there. you'll know. i've learned that just because sometimes life doesnt make sense, it doesnt mean it's wrong. and that just because you found someone who had everything you ever wanted in a significant other, you may not want to be with him/her. life is weird. it really is. it's not only weird, it's confusing.

i've learned that although you think you know, you sometimes dont. i've learned... i've learned... i've learned a lot... but also... nothing at all... didnt i say that life's confusing?

but one thing i do know... life goes on.
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hug me and dont let go

I am obsessed!

i am obsessed. obsessed with the fact that i want to love. i'm not even sure if i need to be loved back. that's how sad it is. lol. i wanna spend every moment i can with him, but i cant. i get frustrated when i miss a chance. it's really out of my hands sometimes. you know what really gets to me tho? liking ppl i know i have a slim chance with. good job, elle! it's like i'm 99% sure he's not interested... but i'm optomistic and i hope. normally, i would say that hope is good, but right now, hope is baaaad. very baaad.
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